How telling is the above statement and for many of us how fitting and appropriate is it. I wonder what it is about us that makes us so reluctant to admit when things are going wrong or if we feel less than okay with the world. Most often just an extra ear or a hug or advice from an outside source can make all the difference yet we so desperately cling to this illusion that everything is fine.
I am an ‘i’m fine girl’ i do it all of the time even consciously and in my own case i am even aware of WHY i do it. I do not wish to be seen as weak or needy, strong people are not meant to be weak and i have been the person to depend on for so long i find it very hard to reverse the roles. But most of all i fear rejection, i find not reaching out is better than reaching out and finding nobody there. Ultimately you can live with the illusion that had you wanted to reach out then you would have found what you needed but it is harder to live with when that illusion is shattered and we find ourselves alone.
So many realities behind two simple words and i find myself so sceptical when someone says to me ‘i’m fine’ if you tell me you’re great or happy or wonderful i shall be more likely to believe you but i do not trust the words ‘i’m fine’ and now will look deeper to find the truth of the matter. They say if the first tear falls from the right eye it is from happiness but should it fall from the left it is from pain how much truth there is in this i do not know but it is definitely food for thought. Perhaps we all need to look a little closer and when that person says to you ‘i’m fine’ ask them to tell you the truth.
I’m fine……….aren’t you??